For the past few years I’ve been very unwell.
Unfortunately things took a turn for the worst recently and I was hospitalised. Underneath the nice and calm art and photos I post there’s a destructive storm.
Due to my mental illness “Schizophrenia” I often find myself ramping up and becoming manic. This is what landed me in hospital, put simply my brain wouldn’t shut down.
The hospital staff first tried to give me normal sedatives but unfortunately they did not work. Then they ended up giving me two doses of ketamine. They had to do this because I had 2 weeks of only a few hours of sleep a night leading up to 3 full nights without sleep with no sight of ever sleeping again.
You can imagine the havoc that insomnia can cause. (Paranoia, delusions and confusion)
I was very fortunate not to have audio or visual hallucinations, a common symptom I’ve experienced in the past.
While all this seems like a horrific experience I’m glad it happened. It felt like a right of passage and being reborn. The psychedelic experience from the ketamine had a very powerful effect on my psyche and has healed much of my depression.
It was a very strange experience like an electric light carousel with many compartments of my life being folded away infinitely.
Due to my Schizophrenia I’ve not been able to use any psychedelics to heal because it is too risky. So I’m very fortunate that I was able to have this experience. While it was given to me as a sedative I found it very therapeutic for my mental health.
I’m also very grateful for my beautiful partner Maddie who helped me through this. It would have been one of the most stressful ordeals for her to go though. I’m very grateful for all that you do my love. ♥️
Now that I’ve been given a new medication I’ve been able to get back on track with my life. I’ve also been given the inspiration to create beautiful new art because the Ketamine opened a can of whoop-ass on my depression.
Another amazing thing that’s blessed our life is a new addition to the family. Maddie and I adopted a dog yesterday. Which has already been an amazing experience. 😍
Stay tuned for more beautiful art coming your way!